Within and Without by Deborah Maroulis
Publication Date: May 28, 2019 | Publisher: Lakewater Press
Some people go to great lengths to fit in. But how far is too far?
After her parent’s divorce, sixteen-year-old Wren Newmann is forced to move from a small California town to her grandmother’s vineyard, where she’s convinced she’ll die a shriveled, wine-country virgin. Her dad’s gone
AWOL, her mom’s hooking up with anything in pants, and her best friend has found the love of her life.
Apart from the annoying but cute Greek farmhand Panayis, who doesn’t appear to notice her awkwardness or thunder thighs, Wren’s life has hit an all-time low... That is until her own dating life improves unexpectedly when Jay, Wren’s long-time country crush, notices her. Yet, it’s as if people don’t want her to be happy, with their warnings and advice that perhaps Jay isn’t the right guy for her. But they don’t know, and Wren’s done being Beached Whale Girl. She’s determined to become social, skinny, and sexy, because Jay wants her—every part of her.
Though her anxiety and secret purging sessions sing another warning that she finds hard to ignore. And when a
series of personal tragedies strikes, Wren’s life is flipped upside down and she’s left to pick up the pieces of her
broken relationships. Now, she must find the inner strength to decide if the illusion of being loved is worth sacrificing her health, and maybe even her life.
Described as “unflinching and authentic,” WITHIN AND WITHOUT is a stunning debut that touches on a teenage girl’s emotionally haunting journey to self acceptance “that will stay with you long after you turn the last page.”
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“Unflinching, authentic, and the perfect mixture of bold and sweet, WITHIN AND WITHOUT is a story readers will lose themselves in more than once. A debut both heartwarming and heartbreaking from an exciting new voice in YA literature.”
—Laurie Elizabeth Flynn, author of Firsts and Last Girl Lied To
“A moving portrait of first love, friendship, and the pressures we put upon ourselves daily.
Maroulis tackles the delicate subject of eating disorders with a realistic pen, all while maintaining a humorous and hopeful tone. WITHIN AND WITHOUT will stay with you long after you turn the last page.” --Samantha Joyce, author of Flirting with Fame
“A heartfelt and moving story of friendship, first love, and finding yourself. Maroulis isn’t afraid to tackle tough topics to show that finding love requires learning to love yourself.”
—Kelly deVos, author of Fat Girl on a Plane
Guest Post: ~ Road to Publication ~
I had this old-fashioned desk when I was little, like the kind the students used in Dead Poet’s Society. When I wasn’t playing school with my stuffed animals, I was writing stories. This habit grew into writing poetry, although my high school creative writing teacher told me I wrote better when I was depressed. He said my “good mood” writing made me sound like a cast-off greeting card hack.
I did write when I was sad or going through something all through high school and even after. Once, my mom found it and asked if I needed to see a therapist. I told her writing was my therapy.
Soon, writing went by the wayside of adulting and parenting. As an English teacher, I would tell my students about the lives of the writers we studied. My colleagues and I would joke that someday that would be us—we’d be the writers students studied in anthologies. But I never thought much past that.
Then one Halloween, roughly three and a half years ago, I made the rash decision to try NaNoWriMo. I’d heard of it from some friends and was completely overwhelmed at the idea of writing 50,000 words in thirty days. I mean, who does that? I had to see if I could. After I handed out the last of the candy, I shut off the light and pulled out an old idea I’d been playing with—a story about what happens to the quiet girl when her best friend suddenly isn’t there anymore.
A month later, I had 50,000 words of what I thought was a great story. There was drama, witty banter, bitter tears. Unfortunately, there were also clichés, stereotypes, and a lot of evidence I’d grown up in the 80s. I needed an editor.
Through the process of researching editors, I found a plethora of writing resources—Writer’s Digest, Twitter, PitchWars, and a host of generous people willing to donate their time and talent. I immersed myself in the community and soaked up whatever I could.
And then I started querying.
After about fifty rejections, I was ready to tank the story and start something new. I figured I could use the old one to hone my craft, pull out scenes and try different techniques. Make myself a better writer, not just a story teller.
So I did. And a funny thing happened. By letting go of trying to finish a product, I’d actually done just that. And it wasn’t bad.
I decided to try querying again, and this time, I got personalized rejections and feedback. I was making progress! But still, no yesses. As I was about to pack the story away for good, I came across a pitch contest on Twitter. I threw up a few pitches and tried to not check my notifications every five seconds.
And then it happened.
After some back and forth with a few publishers, I made the decision to work with Lakewater Press to publish Within and Without. And I’m so happy I did. I learned even more as I worked with my editor.
Moreover, I was able to use what I learned through revising and apply it to another novel I’d written. That novel got me my agent. As Within and Without makes its debut, my other book baby will be headed out on submission. Meanwhile, I’m hard at work on my next project.
ABOUT the AUTHOR:
Born and raised in a small town in Northern California, Deborah Maroulis is lucky enough to surround herself with the things and people she loves. She teaches English and mythology at her local community college, studies myth and depth psychology in her Ph.D. program, and writes contemporary Young Adult novels. She lives in a slightly bigger town than the one she grew up in with her husband, newly-adult children, and her daughter’s very spoiled, semi-retired service dog.
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